To be or Not to be: A Doctor

As all of you have realized, up to now, I’m studying in a Medical course. It’s not the immediate precursor of Medicine, but is quite a good pre-requisite for Medicine: Medical Technology. I’m in my 3rd year of the course and I need only 2 semesters left + 7 months of internship and another year of reviewing and taking the board exams to become a professional.

How it all started 

I admit I do have quite the interest in science when I was young, but in my senior year in high school, taking up medicine, or anything related to it was not in my priorities. Med Tech wasnt even in any of my choices before I entered college (Background check: I badly wanted to be a fashion designer – the career got dumped because ‘they say’ finding a job is a bit scarce and a bit of a struggle. Second, a broadcaster, I imagined myself as a reporter for BBC or in GMA – it got dumped (again) for falsifications that I might end up in local radio or tv stations). Med Tech was like a random choice I entered because of the salary it would give by working abroad (in my country, you are judged by how “high-paid” your salary is, srsly?!). I told my parents and both agreed and suggested should I enter Medicine, I’d be the first doctor in the bloodline.

I didn’t dream of being a doctor ever since I was young. It was like, too generic (I remember drawing a meat vendor as a dream job when I was in first grade). I never believed in myself and I thought I wouldn’t survive or the worst case be incompetent and let the 10 years of studying go to waste by not having a job at the end (I’m quite a pessimist before).

Being practical, I weighed the opportunity and decided to set my goals and be a doctor. I was quite interested in being a dermatologist + my mum and most of the women I know wants me to.

Setting my Goals

1. MONEY. Primarily, my actual goal of being a doctor is being rich (I apologize for being shallow) but, to be practical, that seems to be the goal of everyone (unless you’re already rich).

2. I want to prove something. I’ve always regarded myself as an underachiever, not that smart, not that great, you get the picture. I’ve always envied admired from afar the honor students in my batch, so I aspired that one day I could, and I always wanted my parents to be proud of me, and most of all, to prove to myself, that I CAN do it.

3. Set up a clinic. I aspired to have a clinic and a spa center like Belo’s or the ones here in my city such as Dasal’s clinic. I’d like to promote beauty and I have this severe obsession for spas and facials…

4. Grow money on tress. Trust me, although I do love money, I’m not that greedy (70% of the time). What I actually mean is, once I got the resources and financial capabilities, I plan on establishing a fashion haus and at least sate my long desire for design. I also dream of someday establishing a company (I know I dream limitless, but, I believe I could)

5. Live the remainder of my life to the fullest. Once I’ve done those mentioned previously, I’d like to just relax and party my ass off to compensate for the days I neglected my social life because of the brain-drying studies. I’d like to travel, relax in my minimalist high-tech mansion and of course donate to charity (I already have plans :)) ), buy the clothes I want and be a fashion blogger to mention a few.

Am I Ready?

Well, if you’re in my situation, there’s probably no turning back. If I want to make my dreams come true by solely being a Tech, I think I could, but it would be a struggle (and as my pessimistic side would conclude: would end up in a very big frustrations. You know how it hurts to have dreams so big you can’t achieve them). Here are some factors I’d like to enumerate if I’m ready:

1. Financially – worth a shot. I think my parents are financially capable. In my opinion, were in the above-average middle class status (kind of like in the middle of being rich and average). Well,my parents can sustain our needs and even provide our wants (but not the point that we spoil ourselves) we could occasionally afford luxuries. Still debating if I should work as an MT and study medicine (talk about multi-tasking).

2. Academically – I’m ready. Getting Med tech as a pre-medicine provides good foundations. Bacteriology, Histology, hematology, clinical chemistry, are quite informative and very preparatory to name a few, and MTs are the first line in diagnosis. The head of our Laboratory at Uni said that most Doctors that took MT as a prep course leads the class. I’m so ready, I share medical advice during dinner (not to boast, that is).

3. Mentally – I’m not sure. My inner self is debating whether I’d risk another 10 years of studying and neglect my social life or just struggle now and live life later. I’m trying to motivate myself, but I’ll pretty much end up with the latter.

4. Physically – Worth a shot. Taking the high quality of MTs the University produces (USA) my study habits are honed. I think my body has adapted to study nights with a minimum of 2 hrs of sleep, studying every night, neglecting your social life, walking like a zombie every 8 am on a Monday and the like. I occasionally neglect some studies and give my body the luxury I can’t afford – sleep.

5. Spiritually – BRING IT ON. I’ve always trusted in God. Without Him, I wouldn’t be here venting sharing this blog entry with you. I often pray that he would give me strength to overcome these pains, and if I’m overwhelmed, he’s always there to give me rest. I’m always ready because He is with me.

6. Socially – Sacrificial. My schedule currently is very hectic and I can’t update my blog more often, let alone a tweet. But its okay. I’m willing to sacrifice my social life, which means I’m forced to make human interactions. Ill be fine. I can revive my social life any time 🙂 just be there always.

To Be… ?

To be it is. As much as my body would want me to just rest now, I cant. I’m young and have a lot to achieve. I’m going to prove myself that I’m not an underachiever, and these dreams will be my building blocks. And I couldn’t risk my dreams to turn into a big bitch-slap of frustrations.

Some of my colleagues are taking the NMAT this November. I’m still debating if im going to. I’ll post my thoughts on succeeding blog posts.

If you’re reading this, you just wasted an hour or two reading through my rants, but I admire you for it 🙂 Thanks! Hope you could come back again and read more of my latest posts, or scroll down for some previous ones!

Anyway, are you in the same situation as I am? let me know, don’t hesitate to share or ask 😉

Beauty tips I usually do

Might as well post some tips on how to look beautiful or pretty, or at least feel good. Well, since Im going to be a Parlorist Dermatologist might as well share some tips of beauty.

Caution: these tips are not truly mine, I just read them from some blogs or sites and tested them if they do work. Im not a dermatologist or a professional.

1. Never touch your face.

I myself cant avoid but touch my face.  Touching ur face is a no no when you’re trying to keep pimples/acne at bay. Our fingers is not always clean. Our fingers have a certain bacteria, that if it went on the face, it may cause pimples. To prevent this always wash your hands. Frequent washing of hands will keep bacteria at bay so you can massage your face with your finger tips. I usually touch/examine my face after I take a bath.

2. Wash your face 2 times a day

Wash in the morning after you wake up or take a bath and wash in the evening before you sleep. To me, washing your face in the morning will prep up your face for the day coming up ahead. If you live in a city and walk yourself to work, this could be necessary. Washing your face at night before you sleep is also a must. This is to cleanse your face from pollutants, dust, or make up that got stuck in your pores. about the soap, you can use ordinary soap you like if its okay with your skin, but I usually use facial foams/scrubs/washes.

3. Moisturize

Want your cheeks to be so soft the one’s pinching cant help but wont let go? or should I say, want soft cheeks? there’s one word for that, Moisturize.  I really hate dry skin, especially on my face. I have this feeling of tightness and discomfort when my face is dry. You can use face lotions or creams. I use Nivea Creme’ its a bit greasy, but I only use it at night. It’s also essential to use a facial cream with SPF especially in the day.

4. Lightening

On my early high school days, I got a dilemma on my skin tone. I was dark as a raisin. I struggled. A lot of soaps, lotions, and scrubs got wasted. I didnt go with ‘whiten’ I went with ‘Lighten’. I use milk bars and glutathione soaps, milk salts, and milk baths. I also finish it off with a lightening lotion. Results are flawless. I dont recommend using bleaching soaps or solutions. If you want to get lighter skin with a youthful and healthy glow, be patient. Trust me, you’ll be happy with the results.

5. Diet

Eat fruits that are healthy for you and your skin. Feed your skin.  I eat papaya and tomato for glowing skin. Oh and Berries too! You should supply your skin with Vitamin E. Multivitamins are also essential. But most of all Water. Water is gives the skin its youthful glow, it makes the skin supple and maintain its elasticity and it also moisturizes the skin. Here is a site for some food good for your skin.

6. Steam baths and Saunas

Its been a long time since I did this. I have this portable sauna at home. They have this thingy where you go inside it and it has this small heater-like thing where you pour in the water and some oils or fruits. When the water boils, the steam goes directly to the sauna. By this, you sweat. As you sweat, your pores are being cleared and cleansed. afterwards,  I rinse with warm water and dry off. I have this ‘light and calmed’ feeling and my skin feels so smooth! I recommend you do this before you sleep. If you dont have one at home, you can go to spas and take a sauna, maybe at least once a month. Im sure your skin deserves a little treat.

7. Face Masks

I usually use face masks/nose masks for whitehead/blackhead reduction. Blackheads are not a good sight to see, especially if you have lighter skin. Blackheads are like a matured version of whiteheads. Whitehead come from powder or make up stuck in the pores. They are usually found  on the nose. You can ‘scoop’ them out using a whitehead remover, but the process is a bit painful and might cause irritation, its essential to use face masks. Those creamy things that harden and then you just peel ’em off. Its quite effective, but its not a gurantee they’ll remove your whitehead/blackhead population.

anyway, this all I can say. Ill be posting some more and keep updating you of some tips I find effective and if you have the money, you can go and treat yourself to spas around the city always remember, your body deserves a treat once in a while. You can search more trusted ones in google. Just take care of you skin and you will feel beautiful all over 🙂 If you have any interesting tip feel free to leave comment 🙂

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XoXo ~Gaetana Stephenson

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