To be or Not to be: A Doctor


As all of you have realized, up to now, I’m studying in a Medical course. It’s not the immediate precursor of Medicine, but is quite a good pre-requisite for Medicine: Medical Technology. I’m in my 3rd year of the course and I need only 2 semesters left + 7 months of internship and another year of reviewing and taking the board exams to become a professional.

How it all started 

I admit I do have quite the interest in science when I was young, but in my senior year in high school, taking up medicine, or anything related to it was not in my priorities. Med Tech wasnt even in any of my choices before I entered college (Background check: I badly wanted to be a fashion designer – the career got dumped because ‘they say’ finding a job is a bit scarce and a bit of a struggle. Second, a broadcaster, I imagined myself as a reporter for BBC or in GMA – it got dumped (again) for falsifications that I might end up in local radio or tv stations). Med Tech was like a random choice I entered because of the salary it would give by working abroad (in my country, you are judged by how “high-paid” your salary is, srsly?!). I told my parents and both agreed and suggested should I enter Medicine, I’d be the first doctor in the bloodline.

I didn’t dream of being a doctor ever since I was young. It was like, too generic (I remember drawing a meat vendor as a dream job when I was in first grade). I never believed in myself and I thought I wouldn’t survive or the worst case be incompetent and let the 10 years of studying go to waste by not having a job at the end (I’m quite a pessimist before).

Being practical, I weighed the opportunity and decided to set my goals and be a doctor. I was quite interested in being a dermatologist + my mum and most of the women I know wants me to.

Setting my Goals

1. MONEY. Primarily, my actual goal of being a doctor is being rich (I apologize for being shallow) but, to be practical, that seems to be the goal of everyone (unless you’re already rich).

2. I want to prove something. I’ve always regarded myself as an underachiever, not that smart, not that great, you get the picture. I’ve always envied admired from afar the honor students in my batch, so I aspired that one day I could, and I always wanted my parents to be proud of me, and most of all, to prove to myself, that I CAN do it.

3. Set up a clinic. I aspired to have a clinic and a spa center like Belo’s or the ones here in my city such as Dasal’s clinic. I’d like to promote beauty and I have this severe obsession for spas and facials…

4. Grow money on tress. Trust me, although I do love money, I’m not that greedy (70% of the time). What I actually mean is, once I got the resources and financial capabilities, I plan on establishing a fashion haus and at least sate my long desire for design. I also dream of someday establishing a company (I know I dream limitless, but, I believe I could)

5. Live the remainder of my life to the fullest. Once I’ve done those mentioned previously, I’d like to just relax and party my ass off to compensate for the days I neglected my social life because of the brain-drying studies. I’d like to travel, relax in my minimalist high-tech mansion and of course donate to charity (I already have plans :)) ), buy the clothes I want and be a fashion blogger to mention a few.

Am I Ready?

Well, if you’re in my situation, there’s probably no turning back. If I want to make my dreams come true by solely being a Tech, I think I could, but it would be a struggle (and as my pessimistic side would conclude: would end up in a very big frustrations. You know how it hurts to have dreams so big you can’t achieve them). Here are some factors I’d like to enumerate if I’m ready:

1. Financially – worth a shot. I think my parents are financially capable. In my opinion, were in the above-average middle class status (kind of like in the middle of being rich and average). Well,my parents can sustain our needs and even provide our wants (but not the point that we spoil ourselves) we could occasionally afford luxuries. Still debating if I should work as an MT and study medicine (talk about multi-tasking).

2. Academically – I’m ready. Getting Med tech as a pre-medicine provides good foundations. Bacteriology, Histology, hematology, clinical chemistry, are quite informative and very preparatory to name a few, and MTs are the first line in diagnosis. The head of our Laboratory at Uni said that most Doctors that took MT as a prep course leads the class. I’m so ready, I share medical advice during dinner (not to boast, that is).

3. Mentally – I’m not sure. My inner self is debating whether I’d risk another 10 years of studying and neglect my social life or just struggle now and live life later. I’m trying to motivate myself, but I’ll pretty much end up with the latter.

4. Physically – Worth a shot. Taking the high quality of MTs the University produces (USA) my study habits are honed. I think my body has adapted to study nights with a minimum of 2 hrs of sleep, studying every night, neglecting your social life, walking like a zombie every 8 am on a Monday and the like. I occasionally neglect some studies and give my body the luxury I can’t afford – sleep.

5. Spiritually – BRING IT ON. I’ve always trusted in God. Without Him, I wouldn’t be here venting sharing this blog entry with you. I often pray that he would give me strength to overcome these pains, and if I’m overwhelmed, he’s always there to give me rest. I’m always ready because He is with me.

6. Socially – Sacrificial. My schedule currently is very hectic and I can’t update my blog more often, let alone a tweet. But its okay. I’m willing to sacrifice my social life, which means I’m forced to make human interactions. Ill be fine. I can revive my social life any time 🙂 just be there always.

To Be… ?

To be it is. As much as my body would want me to just rest now, I cant. I’m young and have a lot to achieve. I’m going to prove myself that I’m not an underachiever, and these dreams will be my building blocks. And I couldn’t risk my dreams to turn into a big bitch-slap of frustrations.

Some of my colleagues are taking the NMAT this November. I’m still debating if im going to. I’ll post my thoughts on succeeding blog posts.

If you’re reading this, you just wasted an hour or two reading through my rants, but I admire you for it 🙂 Thanks! Hope you could come back again and read more of my latest posts, or scroll down for some previous ones!

Anyway, are you in the same situation as I am? let me know, don’t hesitate to share or ask 😉

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I wont let them destroy these dreams

HELLO! ❤

been experimenting with photography tricks lately, and I might say I got inspired by the levitation concept. Well its the last days of my summer break and classes start again so Im living it to the fullest, though I know summer classes wouldnt be as bland as the regular semestral classes since its a bit lighter with only two subjects and stuff, but let’s see what this leads to.

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Kind of achieved the ‘dreamy’ feel to the photo but I think it got a bit off when I added the cloud which as you can see is blended poorly, still, the overall picture is quite great. I gave this photo a more ‘floating’ feel.

IMG_3955-Edit-Edit-Edit-Editnow this ‘falling from cloud nine’ pose is a bit hard to do (especially the posing, you cant imagine how much tumbles I got not to mention I almost broke my back) its a tad simple, but it shouldn’t be trifled with

as much as I love having a levitation perk on my coding than the next guy, here’s some awesome inspiration that I got from the internet.

The following I searched for the term ‘sleep elevation’, which is a random post I encountered while reading blogs, forgive me for not adding credits.

 

isnt it all dreamy??!! the photographe probably used rope.

the next set are also some levitation photos minus the extreme heights…

 

 

 

a couple of handfuls. cool right? Im planning to do the ‘vadering’ stunt 🙂 dont worry, Ill post soon enough. SOON. 🙂

what do you think ?

Lots of Love. With Orange Colored Skies.

~xx

 

 

We’re all grieving, Lost and bleeding.

Hello my dear and beloved readers!!!!

Sorry for the inactivity lately. Got nothing to do but watch some youtube videos, preferably: Glozell, RayWilliamJohnson, JacksGap and some BTWBall videos. I already finished Mockingjay, and oh, I forgot to post a review. Well anywhoo, because of the bore + the damage of summer heat is inflicting to my head, I updated my lookbook, and its long been months since I posted an outfit post.

The look I sported has mint stripes in it (which is somehow to die for) and the color of the season, bought this for no less than 5 dollars. The shirt, is thrift-ed, bought it for less than 3 dollars and the white short and the bag is somehow 4 dollars, I think. Some old sunglasses and loafers, and the look is complete. I accept dying in inexpensive glamour so, if you gave me a 20-dollar budget for some fashion finds, I value quantity more than quality.

Oh and Im thinking on making videos. I was totally inspired by these internet meme challenges. Sadly, the local mall doesnt distribute XL marshmallows and cinnamon. So Im left with a rather painful challenge: the Salt and ice challenge. Not much to say though, but Im still on the pursuit for internet traffic, meet Gaga and a boyfriend. Anyway, Im heavily frustrated since I cant go to the ball, and Gaga is gunna be here in less than a month. Well, I guess Ill meet her some other time, I think Im not ready yet.

Ill be posting some more outfits in the days to come, Im such a famewhore, I’d sure love it if my looks on lookbook would get a ton of hypes just overnight and Ill be an internet sensation, and take over the world!!!!! *evil laugh* meh. what am I doing with my life.

If you wanna laugh here’s Glozell’s youtube, the Cinnamon challenge, Salt and Ice challenge, and Chubby Bunny challenge is simply to DIE FOR.

Oh and I’ve been stalking this British boy, Jack and his twin, Finn (did I spell it right) They’re so cute and everything. I’ve been watching “Twin Mail” over and over + the cheeky challenges. Without further adieu, here is le channel JacksGap

See you all in the next post!

Lots of Love. With Orange Colored skies.

~xGagaloo

Private House by Rui Grazina

Private House by Rui Grazina.

so I found this great blog post from my wordpress dashboard.

All I can say is, WOW. If you have read my post about interior designs and everything, you can easily predict that this is totally my type 🙂

Reasons why:

  • Simple
  • Elegant
  • Sleek
  • Airy
  • Spacious
  • it’s so modern + futuristic

Go check it out!

It’s spacious, a little too spacious, but that’s not really the problem 🙂

I’ve read that the lot is 3300 sqm. and the house is roughly 300 sqm. talk about a lot of yard space + greenery, I’d totally love that. Great for outdoor parties, nature photography, inflatable pools, or just lazy lying on the grass, or maybe even picnics!

Quick blog post. NYE blog post next! 😀

~Lots of Love

I dont know what’s sad, me being lonely or my site stats fluctuating. Anywhoo, here’s another ‘look’. I think its been a while since I posted a look. Oh and btw, to see more looks from me + updates be my fan/stalk my lookbook.

Im always intrigued by weddings. The couple, the ceremony, reception, food, photography, the bachelors, and everything pretty about it. I remember my aunt’s wedding. Hahaha Anywhoo speaking about weddings I love how they come up with this pretty photos.

I found this site named Magnolia pair. I dont really know about this site but I think it’s a site for your pre nuptials + wedding plans. Oh and I came over their post on Mr and Mrs Fink. If so you know, this is Cubbie Fink from Foster the People and his wife Rebecca.  I find Cubbie quite attractive and handsome but, never mind, Ill just let my whoremones suffer and dissipate. haha

I just love how simple and elegant the pictures are + the setting, the outfits*esp. the bachelors*. It’s so surreal, dreamy if you ask me, and with a dash of Romanticness *is that a word?* anyway you get the picture. I myself want to photograph such memories maybe even design the clothes and suggest motifs, but Im still a young tike. I’ve got a long way to go, but if you ask me, if I was to be wed, I dont know, they’re still a lot of great ideas in my mind, like bring my family to a new place, or get wed in Paris, at a beach or a peaceful garden,  however, Ill work on and realize these ideas on the day we, (I repeat we) plan our wedding with Mr. Right.

Without further ado. here are the pictures I like after the jump. 😉 pictures arent mine. You can find their pictures and a whole lot more  here.

They’re cute. Are they not? haha

How would your dream wedding be like?

Till my next blog post

Lots of Love. With Orange Colored Skies.

~Gaetana

To a woman, her wedding is her very best day of her life. To a man, his wedding means the game is over. ~Gaetana

 

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